Friday, September 7, 2007
The Explaination I Owe
Many would be wondering what happened to this silly girl again. Guess I’ll just make a short entry about my recent troubles, just for those who care for me. –To those who don’t care or fake care, please just get your sorry ass off my blog-
The series of unfortunate event goes like this, so just picture yourself in this scenario:-
-One of your best friends came up to you and suddenly says that she hates you, accusing you that you snatched her boyfriend when you actually lost contact with the guy for years
-Another friend tells you that your ex is locking himself up in the room and refuses to eat
-Then another friend says that he’s feeling miserable with his current relationship because it’s too similar to how you’ve hurt his feelings in the past
-When your boyfriend says he will give you time to settle your problems, but, he tries to force his way in to intervening everything
-Then, you start worrying bout your own health problem; the stomach cramps that bothers you every night
-Not forgetting those not-so-important people who enjoys backstabbing you and mocking you wherever you go
-Best of all, you have to pretend that there’s nothing wrong, acts tough and pretends to enjoy yourself
-Then again, your love starts giving you a hard time; playing the guilty-mind game to make you feel guilty and give in
-Plus, the amount of workload in school and stress from mum and dad
Anyway, I’m proud to say that I’m still living perfectly, without attempting suicide though I did some silly things:-
*On Monday night
-Cut my index finger in the washroom and used blade to make the wound deeper
*On Tuesday night
-Driving back to Ipoh, at 3am in the morning, and then drive back to KL
*On Wednesday night
-Drinking 6 cans of Heineken at 12am and then come online to talk crap at 2am
-Drinking another 6 cans of Heineken at 4am and forgetting everything about it
-Driving to school 2 hours later under the alcohol influence
-Drinking 3 cups of Double Espresso during the few hours of tutorial in school
*Serene, The tummy facing up, drunk goldfish*
To those who seriously care for me, I hereby promise that I will try to get over this as soon as possible. Don't worry too much about me cause I believe that I can handle this.
Dear, thanks for stading by my side.
Des Kor, thanks for expressing care and concern.
Kel, thanks for offering a listening ear.
Mon, thanks for giving me time and understanding.
Boyboy, thanks for accompanying me in game.
Abang, thanks for cheering me up in game.
Others, who, in some way made me feel better. Thanks.
-I love you all-
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Feeling suffocated by the love that comes with the fear
-I, the pathetic kid-
I still do love you
[Oinkz.QueeN] @ 3:45 AM
+ 3 (coffee) = 
